Your Ghost

I saw you. You were very much alive. You and your friends. You talked to me like there’s nothing wrong. At first, I didn’t believe it. I talked to your friends normally, and I didn’t talk to you. But then you treated me as you did before.

Somewhere in the middle of something important, I was sleepy so I lay down in front of you but not facing you. You were somewhere behind me. I closed my eyes so I could sleep. I was somewhat uncomfortable. After a few seconds, something crawled behind my back. It felt like an arm, and it made its way around my waist. I felt it. And I knew it was yours. The way you were holding me before. I recognized it was yours. And I let off a smile. You held me for some time, and for a moment, I thought it was real.

Heart's Cry

what if I hook up with some stranger? go on with one night stands? have sex with people I don't really love? will that really ruin me? will that give me the thing I need most? where will that lead me?

why did I have to be deceived? I loved that person so much but why did he have to leave me hurting? If he thought that was the best for him, how about me? if he thought that I planned to ruin his new relationship, I did not! I never wanted to ruin somebody's relationship even if they ruined mine! Their relationship's a ruin from the start!

I never planned for revenge. I never intended for their fall. I do not have anything to do with him no more.